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 Darren Hardy Leader in business and personal Inspiration.

Power of Encouragement!

Teary-eyed inspiration of Brotherly Love!

Ted C. (Among the strongest emotionally.)

320306: Ted’s main philosophy: It is, what it is.

 Mrs. Mary H.  (Overcoming the fear of being alone and forgotten.) 

230312: This sharing page is a fabulous idea. I do feel connected. Perhaps someone will benefit from my bad experience. I have a fear of being alone and forgotten, of being overlooked. It stems from childhood. Growing up as the youngest of four siblings in a busy household I craved attention when the older ones were forging ahead with their activities. Dad was working and studying for his Ph.D. Mom was involved with community activities, trying to make a name for herself, and was somewhat resentful of a limited income when she had come from a more well-off family. I was told to “just go along with the show”, as many of my activities paralleled my siblings. I had started school when I wasn’t quite ready and had to repeat second grade while changing schools. I craved emotional support and reassurance. I felt like I didn’t fit in with my peers. God has given me a wonderful Christian husband of 45 years and two successful loving sons. We are very active in our church and community. But I still have this nagging gut feeling that haunts me. I get windows of reprieve, peaceful times. Does anyone else identify? I pray for God’s love to embrace me and to know that He has my life and future in His care.

 Mr. Engineer70: (Grief causes a 40-year emotional wreck.) Here are thoughts from my engineer friend; let’s call him Mr. Engineer70 because I first met him in 1970. He says he is an emotional wreck due to the loss of his fabulous Fufu wife in 1983, almost 40 YEARS ago! In his words: 

Fufu is powerful feminine magnetism and her nickname! FuFu almost always wore dresses, silky, lacey dresses! Underneath there was always a silky, lacey slip, the Pinnacle of her Femininity! She often wore wrap-around dresses. Just looking at her outfits was irresistible. And what she did with her dresses and slips would overpower any mortal man she wanted. And she wanted me! I was her Hunk of Man. There was more to her powerful feminine magnetism than that! More, much more! When she did wear jeans, they were low-cut with slender legs! Seldom have I seen jeans that look so bedazzling!

And Fufu is a high-level person: she was the Manager of Documentation Control at a worldwide known Fortune 500 high-tech manufacturing company! That’s where we met. She had all the engineers under her power, including me. She is the most organized person I have ever known. She also was a tech writer for another high-tech company. Now that’s high-level!

Fufu and I never made love! Instead, we had super fabulous Fufu treats! Fufu treats are as far above making love as making love is above having sex!

Lately, when people ask about me I tell them I’m a freelance, traveling design engineer, a high-level design engineer, summa cum laude – top 5%.

Summa cum laude needs Fufu! Without Fufu, I’m in the BOTTOM 5%!

Kylie Minogue singing Locomotion reminds me of FuFu: same body style, same arms, just as dazzling, just as spunky, with bigger beautiful red hair, more silk and lace, and even more feminine magnetism! I was so delighted to be her Hunk of Man!

Losing FuFu is the worst regret of my life, the worst failure. I am a Design Engineer who solves complex problems, yet I was unable to solve the most important problem of my life, the problem that mattered the most.

230420: Today a new friend texted me, “I hope you are well.” after I told her I have been pretty lazy the last few days. I decided to text her the truth: “I’m too sad to function 90% of the time. My wife is dying. Nothing else much matters anymore 90% of the time.” Then I sent my new friend a link to the Beatles’ Yesterday. Then I added, “Paul says he’s not half the man he used to be. I’m not one 10th the man I used to be.”

230319: Yesterday was a great day! Yesterday I met Sean, a professional business manager, an EXPERT in business! He is a high-level person and a family man. He liked our tax change and bamboo ideas; he like them very much! He would like to have a future as we see it for his children and his grandchildren. He’s willing to give us consultation and advice. We believe he will be a key element in refining and promoting our ideas!

230318: Last night I was having a great time at Karaoke. Then I saw a face I recognized: It was Cher, a lookalike anyway. Her body and face were that of a young Cher! I was inspired and sang both voices of “I got you, Babe.” Before I sang I said, “There is a Cher lookalike here tonight. I will sing this song in her and Cher’s honor!” The crowd and the lookalike loved it!

Then I saw a second face I recognized, a beautiful face, the first face I wanted to see in the morning every day for the last 40 years. Her face was a FuFu> lookalike; a very rare dazzling beauty! It overwhelmed me: if I was not sitting in a chair, I would have collapsed to the floor. She was on her way out the door when I first saw her. In seconds she was gone, gone forever! She left me stunned, collapsed in my chair, unable to breathe. I was able to recover before my next song “I’m So Excited ” by the Pointer Sisters. The crowd loved it, many sang along, and some even took the mike and sang beautifully! The terrible pain I felt inside did not show.

The FuFu lookalike shut me down for a day and several hours. Writing this to my support group has helped me plow through the pain. I will resume working on productive activities NOW!

230313: Some people say I should just move on. Others say find somebody else. A few say I like being sad. Most of them have never seen her Fufu>: her bedazzling beauty, delightful personality, and exciting feminine magnetism! And the best of all, the fabulous love she HAD for me. Most of these people are not Fufu, or their wives are not Fufu. And I have not seen the fabulous love between two people that I and Fufu had!

230307: My FuFu> wife and I used to lie in bed on our sides facing each other. I would suckle like a baby on her nipples. It gave me a comforting, soothing, relaxing feeling. We fell asleep quickly
I now do something similar that gives me that comforting, soothing, and relaxing feeling: I suckle, thinking I am connected to the CREATOR. He gives me DIVINE NOURISHMENT, as does the BODY and BLOOD. I usually fall asleep soon after.

230303: Taking care of my Emotional Health is productive. It is not a waste of time! Everything else depends on my Emotional Health! Including my Physical Health: My Emotional illness messes with my eating, sleeping, and exercising! I have been a physical wreck for over a decade!

230301: My 50-year-old son never got married, never wanted to get married, because he saw how devastated I was after my second marriage broke up. I died when that second marriage broke up; the real me died when my son was 10 years old.

So what do I think of my fabulous Fufu> wife? I am an accomplished sports and academic enthusiast: a college scholar-athlete of the year award winner. I have accomplished more than that, much more. I accomplished so much because I enjoyed it, not for fame or fortune. Yet I’d rather be her $4 million design engineer Tooder Bear husband than a multi-millionaire Super Bowl MVP or a Nobel prize winner! That’s what she means to me. In fact, I would choose her over being a person who was a Super Bowl MVP and who also won a Nobel prize.

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